Well, i am writting something abstract today.... hm... what i saw in days of my lives, is really amazing... Weeks ago this buddy of mine was devastated, trying to repossess something he lost... someone to be exact.. but he is opening up now... great to see him pulling himself together.... he was like a ghost weeks ago, but now i can see him happy and well again...
I know i am stubborn by nature, well my chinese zodiac is a wooden ox, cant blame me for being stubborn.. I am pretty persistent to do things i wanna do... maybe my teenage life shape me up this way, and i didnt know i was lucky enough to do what i wanna do.. there are people who have to earn their fees for education.. all i had to do was ask, i took things for granted.. all my salute goes to those who earn their own way to education.. they thrive, save and starve for their education, while i spent a fortune while pursuing my education.. there are lots of sideshows in my studying life.. i was busy with hanging out with old buddies, swimming, cycling, mountain climbing... and now mountain biking and triathlon, which are expensive hobbies as bikes are expensive... what the heck its money well spent, for the technology and response i got from the bikes... but i am thankful that i was born well and didnt have to struggle.. my parents did struggle when i was very young... too young to remember what happened.. but now i am just glad my family is in great condition... I don't know if i should like thank god or what, as for now i am a freethinker, i have shallow knowledge about christ, as i read the bible a few times... New King James Version i remembered, it was a gift from Aunty, Kath's mum... its not that i dont embrace a religion or something, something spiritual can be a lot of help in times when i need to rely or confide to someone.... I was 18 and i did thought of converting, i mean get baptised but i have to sacrifice my sunday mornings to church... sundays are the only day in a week for me to spend with my family... i wanna spend quality time with my dad and mum... and i don't want to be the pushy son to drag them to church, for what i think it is selfish to do so, as religion is something individual, don't go messing with other's religious views, not even my parents... i love them enough to let them have a freedom to choose.. no offense to those who serve the lord but pushing someone is not the way... freewill..... haha
Sometimes i will think of myself in another paradox.. or timeline if i made a different decision last time.. how will i turn out if i went to sports school and became a full time swimmer? or what will i become if i went to Aussie to study right after my SPM, my parents gave me an option but i chose to stay in country.. I can't control my curiousity, but for now, i am really glad of what i am now... Being a young adult is pretty hard, juggling time between family and friend ties, work commitments, and my commitments to triathlon... i am getting older but i would like to regain some of my 'teenage possessions'... i love my body when i was a teenager, toned and fit, though im not in a very bad shape now.. good looks is gone too.. hahha cant pull those romantic pickup lines to my girl now... well i gotta work tmr... thats all for now.. adios..
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