Always be my baby...

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end

TRAVELLING.....

Hm.. its summer and all our holiday moods have resurfaced... I havent been to much places myself, unlike my brother, he had been to half of europe..
ITALY : Italy is the only country outside UK i've been to.... I personally love Florence, or Firenze in Italian... hm... Roma; an ancient city where u can see the most of the aftermath of the fallen Roman Empire... Castello Di Angelo, Palatino, and also the magnificent Colleseum... Italy is a nice country, but beware of pick pockets... They are extremely skillful... and those a-hole swindlers who will tie a knot on ur hand and refuse to untie it unless u pay them, 20 Euros... Besides, its a nice and romantic country..
CHINA : Its been 13 years since i last went there and i truly wish to be there again... it was 1995, and i was only 10 years old.. too tender to understand the history of ancient dynasty... The forbidden city is unbelievebly huge... i can still recall the place... Great Wall of China, another epic landmark left by the Qin Emperor... There are several places i forgot.. places like Chengde.. and the tomb of Qin Shih Huang and the Terracotta Army..... to think back i was so damn lucky to be in China at that age...
Thailand : I've been there twice in 2 years.. 1999 and 2001... i was 14 and 16 respectively... hm... pattaya and phuket is nice.. Cant recall much as i am now sleepy... but i prefer Redang and Perhentian..... Malaysian island is still the best....
yawn... time to turn in... adios...

Time and tide...

Well, i am writting something abstract today.... hm... what i saw in days of my lives, is really amazing... Weeks ago this buddy of mine was devastated, trying to repossess something he lost... someone to be exact.. but he is opening up now... great to see him pulling himself together.... he was like a ghost weeks ago, but now i can see him happy and well again...
I know i am stubborn by nature, well my chinese zodiac is a wooden ox, cant blame me for being stubborn.. I am pretty persistent to do things i wanna do... maybe my teenage life shape me up this way, and i didnt know i was lucky enough to do what i wanna do.. there are people who have to earn their fees for education.. all i had to do was ask, i took things for granted.. all my salute goes to those who earn their own way to education.. they thrive, save and starve for their education, while i spent a fortune while pursuing my education.. there are lots of sideshows in my studying life.. i was busy with hanging out with old buddies, swimming, cycling, mountain climbing... and now mountain biking and triathlon, which are expensive hobbies as bikes are expensive... what the heck its money well spent, for the technology and response i got from the bikes... but i am thankful that i was born well and didnt have to struggle.. my parents did struggle when i was very young... too young to remember what happened.. but now i am just glad my family is in great condition... I don't know if i should like thank god or what, as for now i am a freethinker, i have shallow knowledge about christ, as i read the bible a few times... New King James Version i remembered, it was a gift from Aunty, Kath's mum... its not that i dont embrace a religion or something, something spiritual can be a lot of help in times when i need to rely or confide to someone.... I was 18 and i did thought of converting, i mean get baptised but i have to sacrifice my sunday mornings to church... sundays are the only day in a week for me to spend with my family... i wanna spend quality time with my dad and mum... and i don't want to be the pushy son to drag them to church, for what i think it is selfish to do so, as religion is something individual, don't go messing with other's religious views, not even my parents... i love them enough to let them have a freedom to choose.. no offense to those who serve the lord but pushing someone is not the way... freewill..... haha
Sometimes i will think of myself in another paradox.. or timeline if i made a different decision last time.. how will i turn out if i went to sports school and became a full time swimmer? or what will i become if i went to Aussie to study right after my SPM, my parents gave me an option but i chose to stay in country.. I can't control my curiousity, but for now, i am really glad of what i am now... Being a young adult is pretty hard, juggling time between family and friend ties, work commitments, and my commitments to triathlon... i am getting older but i would like to regain some of my 'teenage possessions'... i love my body when i was a teenager, toned and fit, though im not in a very bad shape now.. good looks is gone too.. hahha cant pull those romantic pickup lines to my girl now... well i gotta work tmr... thats all for now.. adios..

Days of my life...

i've been away for a week.. hm.. busy busy busy.. got a job at window charm and Dale storage.. its nice people there.. Arnie and Jim are friendly folks... Arnie even offers morning drinks to us... hm... so far i am having a great time working there.. and not forgetting my project... boo hoo... its no longer available at Roxspur.. so Carl n i both have to change the project title... damn.. i have crappy luck.... That was what i was working on the last week.. Tmr i will look for my beloved Dr. Martin for project updates... hm...
To those bike owners in Charlotte Road... Please take good care of ur bike... Nutcase #2's bike was STOLEN!!!! His Raleigh was stolen this afternoon.... damn those thieves are quick.. now i cherish both my bikes more... it hurts when u lost em'...
Went cycling again this afternoon.. damn my wimpy legs cant fight the headwinds.... i trained for the Wakefield Triathlon.. and damn it costed me 60 quids to register.... i aint paying 60 quids for a triathlon race man.. its just too ridiculous.. i am now opting for a sprint distance... which is 35 quids... still a bit expensive but what the heck.. i've trained myself since late spring... nevertheless.. i am still young.. haha there is always next year... ooh yea today a dude in a black lamboghini gallardo convertable winked at me while i was riding on the way back from Castleton... I was 'winked at'.... damn.. but the wink will be much sweeter if it was from a chick.. toobad i am not boarding the 'dude train'..... yet..... its raining now.. and im goin out.. shaking my bon bon!! yoo hoo

Cherish the 'perished' moments

Hmm.. went out for a drink yesterday nite.. with one of my mates... heard some life stories..... aih... sad stories.... let me realise how important it is to cherish what i've got now... its not that i don't cherish what i've got now, but i really cant imagine losing things i love the most... hearing stories like that made me wanna cherish those dear to me more, to a whole new level... i would trade anything for remain what i have now... hm.. called my parents juz now.. hm they might not be coming for my convocation... i can understand it, dad's doing business, and bro cant cope alone if he went away for like 2 weeks... but cant say im not dissapointed... but the comforting thought is i know they are proud of me... hm.. my dad really dotes on me too much... i told him i mayb goin to germany (damn i hate this country for beating portugal) this coming october... he told me is i dont have cash i can always ask.. hm.. i am being spoilt... haha lucky i am.. called my girl after calling my parents... She's out with her friend though.. inconvenient to talk... so i cant tell her how much i love her and i will do anything to cherish her.... ooh thats sweet but thats gonna wait for now.. haha
Adios.. lunch time..

Back from Tyne and Wear!!!

An agonising 6 hours bus trip from newcastle to Sheffield.. damn the toons army is faraway..... but its worth the trip!!! met up with my bud, richard a big time plawyer... i meant lawyer...... and yea met up with my high school 38 mei, charmaine... well i used to call her by soh yee, but since everyone is calling her by charmaine here, i juz go with the flow... haha well from all i see everyone is doing well, grown quite alot... but immaturity is still stuck within me... hahah...
Okie a 4 day tour to newcastle was great!!! but 0 progress on my dissertation and project.. move move move!!!! well its a monday tmr, but will be cycling with nutcase #2 tmr.... haha i have no life dont i?? hm... my girl was telling me not to suprise her on her bday or sumting, saying economy is bad and i shouldnt splurge on it... hm.. tat means she reads my blog... hm... yay!! well i will be getting busier from now on, as i will be working on my projects, and also job hunting, hm... well time for me to turn in.. i am blimey tired now... au revoir....

To the toons!!!

I'll be heading to Newcastle tomorrow, to meet up with richard... first time meeting up with him since we left country... hm.. wonder hows that big lawyer doing.. Well another pound spending trip.. but its for an old friend... hm..
Handed up application forms at Staples and Decathlon.. hope i will get some part time job, kinda poor now so need some extra quids will help... I decorated my CV with fanciful sports, from mountain biking to scuba diving and everything else.... hm....
Hill training again this morning, and damn the headwinds, the hills that i could easily pedal up seems impossible to climb today, due to direct headwinds... The winds are so strong that i was actually 'nudged' by the winds when i was going downhill, n i was going real fast... maybe around 35 to 40 mph.... my bike's tyre pressure seems low, but its allrite i shall pedal harder tmr morning to make up what i lost today!!! hm...
Yesterday was my sista's bday... and i called and wished her... as usual chatted with mum and pap... and they sound ok and the usual conversation asking how they doing and they asked back how am i doing.... but this never gets old.. i dunno why... pap told me if i am in short of cash i have to tell him.... how lucky i am to have a supportive old man... told him i am doing okay.. and bro just banked in some to me.. so for now i will be okie i guess... my girl's bday is coming... scratching head what to suprise her.. hey she reads this blog.. no more suprises then... i cant pull off flowers and chocolate everytime, thats for extremely special occasion..... and i aint the sharpest tool in the shed.... hah!
Sometimes i think, with my parents so protective and overly worried bout me, will i be a spoilt brat??? well i think i kinda am.. but who cares.. hm..... well i gotta pack my stuff for newcastle.... hm... so for now.. adios...

Had my life figured out??? nah...

Its 1 am now.. im still up reading other people's blogs... nothing better to do?? actually yea.. rather than internet shopping, i took some time to make some soul searching.... well i can say that i spend a lot on my hobbies, which is pretty expensive.... money is not easy to come by, and others judge me by buying such expensive bike... little did they know about the fun and pleasure i find in biking... its a 100 times better than betting, ooh yea i have problems with gamblers, i do... i am prejudiced against them, learnt my lesson thru believing words that came out from a gambler... so.. yea i have problems with gamblers... okie back to bike, i never regret one single bit buying my bike, as it brought me so much pleasure, ooh yea... i love her (Specialized Rockhopper) so much.... er.. of course she comes after my mum, what she gave me was unconditional love... and also after my girl ( saying this coz my bike dont read blogs ).... hahahaz...
Well i seen alot of people... and a lot of life experiences... from people who earn his way and education by themselves and to those who crashed his dad's sports car... People always tell me how lucky i am... as if i don't know myself, and bla bla bla.. how they worked hard for their own living expenses and stuffs, and even told me to save money by selling off my bike... what i tell them in my mind is to bugger off (thats me being polite, i use the F word in real life frequently) and don't you dare to judge me without knowing what i went thru... Its true that i spent a lot in my college life, thats because i had suffiecient pocket money and i did part time myself.. my side income was actually easy money, and i earn a big whole lot from there.. its not very convenient to disclose what i did last time, its not something thats harmful, i have my ethics... i earned bucks.. before it all came down on me.. okie, i lost 5 digits sum of money, in college life.. its a terrible impact on me... and no i didnt lose the sum of money thru betting, i have brains... I am lucky to have my parents supporting my education without earning it myself, but that doesnt give others right to judge me.. haha hell yea i am lucky, hm.. i guess i have everything figured out myself in the future.. i did it once in college, and i can do it in the future... i believe in myself, my judgement, my decision-makings and everything else... never look back and wonder 'what if'.... men cannot be indecisive, fickle minded, and must have a stand of their own.
Hm.. i heard a lot of complaints from my friends, about how male chauvenist can be a spoilspot... well some people is still living in stone age, male of a single species is no longer the dominating one, as there are a hell lot of successfull females out in the working field.. i find it pretty disturbing that one of the male chauvenist comment that i heard; whenever he saw a woman driving a nice car, he quickly jumped into assumption that she is some rich guy's daughter or having affair with the boss... i wonder which era is he still living in.. such an old fashioned, idiotic thinking still exists.. sometime he surprises me... such a wowser.. a loser that couldnt accept the truth that girls nowadays are simply smarter than guys... well in some way... haha okie enough of loser talk... feeling a lil tired now.. time to sleep... adios..

dedicated to my girl...

i had a short chat with my girl today... and she had been blogging since i dont know when.... being his guy for like almost 2.5 years, i had no idea she blogs.... what a guy i am... i felt bad, but now i have treat her better to compensate... after reading her blogs, found that she is doing well... of course there are ups and downs...she had her down times... when i was around her, sometimes she need some time alone, when she cries i kept asking her whats wrong.... maybe i dont really understand her well enough.. i should have known she needs some time to adjust herself.. well up to this point i have to agree that people always said that men are careless... well my dear girl, if you are reading this now, i will try to be a better guy... i said try... hahaha self defense mechanism... i have to say she is much more mature than i am... mental wise, not physically (girls are sensitive with maturity, can be misintepreted as old)... being away from country, from my family and from everything else i long for, made me realise one universal truth... absence made the heart grows fonder.... i do miss my family lots, i miss my dad and mum... i am pretty sure i am greatly missed back home too!!! haha.. and i do sometimes, i said sometimes, once in a very very blue moon, which is extremely rare.... cried myself to sleep, thinking of my family, and also my girl.... she is a part of my life now... hm... i dont want to give her extra pressures... so let things flow the natural way... and i can be the nature at times.... so it can flow my way.. okie enough of riddles and semi truths...
OOH yea additional note.. how can i forget...... i went to Wharncliffe woods with nutcase #2... Wharncliffe woods was the hangout place for Steve Peat, the 2005 world Freeride champ.... the way there was uphill,but i can feel my pedalling power is increasing, i can pedal uphills without cadence and at a moderate pace and not-so-elevated heartbeat... zone trainings are great... haha but when we hit the woods, the reflexes and balancing power takes over... the level of adrenaline is unbelieveably high as the speed downhill was frightening... nobody can believe it.. nutcase #2 had a terrible face plant.. with bruises on his forearms and waist... and its pretty bad.. he cracked his helmet too... imagine the momentum and the impact that he actually cracked his relatively new helmet.... i had his face plant caught on video.... ooh it hurts everytime i saw the replay... my... his kona stinky was still in one piece.. so its one hell of a strong bike.. he gets what he pays for.. its expensive... true but the momentum and control is unbelieveably good... haha i still love my specialized rockhopper... damn the money is well spent on the bike...
Back to my girl... hm.. i am currently reading her blog... check out what she wrote on the blog... "I had the sweetest day with my mate. No words can descibe.(^_^)I guess that's the magic you can do, all the time." ..... seems like i am a magician myself without knowing it.. how great am i... hahahah well reading that definately made my day, to know that i am being loved and doted... the best feeling in the world.. it beats the feeling of winning an ironman race.... yea rite... haha
ooh before i forget, a very old friend of mine won a SUKMA gold medal.. really felt happy for her.. she deserved it... hm.. for now i think thats enough... hills training tmr!! chao

Bright and sunny day

Finally have some news from Dr. Martin... currently in EMB waiting for him.... with carl beside me... he kan chiong... cause he didnt get any project titles from his supervisor.....
Additional note, today the sun is shining mercilessly... good, as it always rained when i was doing my laundry, and now this perfect weather when i have no laundry... oh the weather is kind to me.. just read some news from home... oh my god the furl price hike up to rm2.70 per liter... it is unbelievable... god bless car owners... i am now sticking tightly to my dear bicycles....
Had a chat with my girl yesterday, seems like its her turn to go into battle field in shiny armour.. hm.. she seemed happy.. and she is ready i guess... its always good news.. hahahaha thinking of going for a long cycle later... hm.. alne.. yea.. but traffic might be a prob.. who cares..
gotta go now.... adios tats all for now

Project... and Thesis writting

I went to uni today, with the sole purpose to discuss my project details with Dr Martin, and before i reached his office i saw a bunch of freshies out on the EMB.. Whew.. what a sight.. all squatting on the pathways eating their lunch boxes... went into Dr. Martin's office and he is out the whole day, maybe he was attending some conferences or something, or on leave, well its summer and its common for him to have some time off with his families... After leaving messages to Dr. Martin i went to join the summer semester students, and hell yea i met a lot of old friends, tagged along their briefings and so on.. haha ended up playing basketball with the bunch of friends in the evenings... hea hea hea... there goes project day #1... yay!!!
Well today my Gal is taking her first ACCA paper.. wonder how she did.....i will be calling her tmr to check her out.. As i said i have faith in her, so nothing shall go wrong.. She is smart, though she can be stubborn at times, but thats where i find her attractive.... i can be stubborn sometime, but i cant make it attractive, i dont know why... Been 9 months since i last saw her, hm.. have to say i kinda miss her alot i have to admit, but guys are supposed to be strong upfront.. As a kawanku member we tend to give people a very tough impression, but our soft, sensitive and vulnerable heart is enclosed within a rugged outshell... hahaha......
I called my father yesterday, it was his birthday, wished him well and everything... he sounded happy, and thats all i wanna hear from my old man... he is happy and all is well... hope i wont dissapoint him... i wanna make him proud, well i think he is proud of me... i guess.... Thats motivation to complete my project!! Mum sounded happy and my sis is always cheerful as well... Bro is always using his 'prototype big brother' gesture, but i know he dotes on me a lot.... since young he dotes on me, and i am proud to say we went thru thick and thin together..... Being the youngest in the family is great, my dad dotes on me.. my mum dotes on me.. my bro n sis dotes on me too.. i am one lucky fella....
I am beat after cleaning up my room, clearing all the leftovers my bro left me... and vacumn the whole house... time to turn in... tats all for now... adios...

My a** hurts

today i went mountain biking with nutcase#2.... we covered all sorts of cycling... road, trails and also downhills... damn i have bloody wimpy legs... its the hills... it definately is..... but hell yea i had fun.. though i cursed the whole way up the trails.. now my butt cheek has blisters... i did wear padded shorts but i don't know why the blisters still came out... well we cycled from 9am to 5pm... normal working hours...
Additional note, Winny, one of my close friend left sheffield for home... hm, abit sad as she is pretty close to me, and no one to cook soup for me... (note to Jenn).. Juz had dinner with Ping, as he seemed so lonely without winny, aih.. seperated lovebirds..... but i think he can cope la.. n yea the new batch of summer semester students has arrived, and i have to say that its awfully fast, i've been here for one year... how time flies...
Thesis-writting and project-doing has yet started, i have to work hard for it.. in order for me to graduate this year.. i am pretty sure my parents are anxious about coming over... well no sweat i think i can handle... Exams just ended and that means all written paper examinations comes to a stop now... My gal will be taking ACCA externals this 4th and 5th of June... and juz wanna give her the best support i can, she is smart so i think she can handle.. i have faith in her.... Well my mind is now on semi-hibernating mode... Kinda tired from the 8 hrs ride.... and my ass is not getting any better...
Adios.. for now... im out....

Finally...

Today is a good day.... good day as i paid extra 100 pounds, for something i didnt even realised... i rented a car for arond 40 quids... inclusive of insurance.. but who on earth knows that there is some deep scuff on the left panel mirror when i returned the car.... n i had to pay 100 quids for that.. but its parts and parcel of life, ai... forget it... but on the brighter side, i finished all my exams... yoo hoo.. n i think i did ok... hm... yea baby yea..... hahahahha tats all for today.. and i had losta cleaning up job to do... my room is like a dog's kennel.... hahah gotta go... adios...

The knight in the shiny armour!!

Okie... closing thought on my studies.. tmr will be the final paper examination i will be taking in my studying life... hm.. well what can i say; since the first time i studied, which was like kindergarden- 6 years old, i am 22 this year.... 16 years of solid books and i dont seem to grow one single bit... i must be wasting my parent's money... but there is still a project and a dissertation for me to complete... parts and parcel of studying life... inevitable, okie.. now, i am gonna turn in... i did all i could to study... so i leave the rest to my performance in exam tmr.... the final battle... under my command, i shall conquer everything i see... vedi veni vici, goodspeed and all the best... hwew...

Random topics

The result of PED (Pre Exam Depression), not Penis Erectile Dysfunction as stated by Gloria... hahhah i am writting this to get some time off from my text books....and er my mind is blank now... well went for a short cycle last nite, to the border of derbyshire, again... I like the countryside better than the city, i can smell freedom there... well i was chatting with Brother bear and Edwin just now, seems like both of them is working in a programming related field. Good for them because without these programmers, we can never write up a blog, ooh give thanks... Brother bear aka Adrian Lim Keat Poh (funny full name) and Keanu too sexy aka Edwin Wong Kin Choy (classic name) are my high school mates, and i am glad we are still in contact after so many years, Brother bear played tennis in his primary school and secondary school years, and that explains his tanned skin, like mocha, and no he doesnt look like latin guys... damn how time pass by...
Well, i had a nice dream last nite, no its not a wet dream.. no.. but i dreamt of my parents and my gal.. they are coming over!! yay!! i talked so much to my father, asked him how's everything, and as always a man of few words, and my mum, ooh i miss them.... and my gal, still standing tall and i miss her angelic face.... my.. i wonder sometimes how on earth can i score such a pretty gal, and i told myself you are not too bad yourself!! damn i am so full of myself... hahha okie
Hm.. whats next, oh yea i figured what am i suppose to do this summer.. my project of course.. and some part time work.. and yea i started my triathlon trainings since last month... been cycling and running, but didnt swim, i havent swam in like.... 9 months, my strokes and everything will be gone by now.. damn... the last triathlon i took part was in msia, A Famosa tri, and i met my old friends from Bukit Jalil, damn they still look fit, and i had to carry some extra 5 kgs of weight... i came out from the water fast... but the cycling leg was wimpy... and at the 28th KM my tyre burst... i DNFed the race.. so sad.. never DNFed a race... but thats inevitable...haha okie time to hit the books!!!

High School life...

Advanced Manufacturing Technology - This is the subject im gonna be take in exam.. in like... 72 hours... but i still have time for blogging.. hurray!! All thanks to my not-so-glorified friend who came by the name 'nothing'... well he thought its cute.. no where there man.. no where there... and another friend who is kinda shy... boon..... dun la so shy... step up.. walk like u own the world... Life had been challenging i should say, and being a bananaman doesnt really help... Grown up in a Banana Society, my friends around me all doesnt recognise chinese characters.. for some time i thought - hey its cool.. im OCBC (Orang Cina Bukan Cina) but its not funny now... Well i cant make decisions when i was only 7.. i cant choose to go chinese primary school.. if i could i would.... i would actually prefer Co-ed instead of all boys... i thought things may change when i got into secondary.. but once and again i went to the so-called primier school by the name of English College (Maktab Sultan Abu Bakar).... hey it sounds a lot cooler than Sekolah Menengah bla bla.. no offense to those who went to one... but then.. its an all boys school... Its there where my life actually begins... I got to know my asshole buddies (im allowed to curse once in a while). These awesomely hot (self proclaimed) boys made my high school life interesting... We did lots and lots of stupid stuffs, e.g. trying to pluck each other's balls, or nipple pinching... damn if there were girls in my school, that would be a sight... Form 3 Dinamik; thats an unforgettable year, for i was the centre of joke; being the joke itself... There were biawak spotting incident, Boomerang dissapearing incident, and lost some very idiotic bet on football and have to say 'i love you' to one of the girls in the tuition... Form 4 Etika a year of agony and actions; actions such as Jason Lim bullying incident and many more.... Oh before i forget.. i actually left EC for like 3 months, to Sport School in Bandar Penawar and Bukit Jalil for intensive trainings, but the prodigal son returns.... A Kawanku member never leaves the group.. haha, Form 4 is the year i first... for the first time in my life i had a crush on this girl... and damn she is so my type.. i dont know but she makes my 'small deer simply crash' ( chinese idioms ), She is sporty... i had a thing for sporty girl, she seems so high up there, and untouchable, like she is the princess and i am the poor man.... (she became my girl 2 years later... for further details in future posts) hahahahz... okie enough of my little boy's crush and move on to the Form 5 Dinamik... not much action that year due to SPM.... but still.. lots of jokes and 'legendary' acts by myself and my buddies... Kawankus for life!!!.. oh yea, Kawanku is the name of our group, originated from the Maybank Kawanku, but only we are better... but that was the time of my life, humiliated? yes... but who cares... i enjoyed it... Opposite sex explosure is not what we are used to, so tuition time is the only time we could actually talk to other girls, but i didnt... i dont know why but i didnt... So my high school years flew by with all 'light sabre' dudes...

my first day of blogging...